Well, I have been away from blog world for quite some time. I didn't think I would come back to blog world but lately all I can think about is wanting to come and express myself. My job is going fabulous, I am really doing a kick ass job. My friends and family are awesome. A person in my situation should feel like the luckiest person in the world... Yet, I have the emptiness inside of me. I can't put my finger on where the emptiness comes from and not all the therapy in the world can help you, trust me... I've been there.
I don't know why I feel so empty, so alone, so lonely. For the longest time all I have wanted was the perfect man. I have summed up what I am looking for in a man. I love black men, educated, athletic, and swag is a plus. Yet, I seem that I can not find what I am looking for and when I am not looking it seems it can not find me. People say patience, I say does my lonliness really come from being single... I know that sounds silly but is that really the truth behind of this.
All of my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends, even families. I am the last one standing it for some reason it seems to bother me. I don't know anymore.
My life seems so perfect from the outside yet in the inside I'm in complete pain from my lonliness.